Tuesday, February 17, 2009

R.I.P. Grandpa

Finally, my grandpa has passed away after so much torture.
I used to stay with my grandparents when i was a little girl.
Few years later, my parents bought a house and we moved out from there.
There was a long period i didn't care about my grandparents (my dad's side) as they liked to scold people.
For example, if you cook something, and you bring some to let them try, they would say, "@#$%, why you bring food to me? are you trying to grab something from me? "
What a sad thing, just wanna make him happy but ended up like this.
So, i tried my best 'avoid' to go to my grandparents' place unless some special occasions.

About 1 week before CNY, my mum told me that grandpa was in the hospital. He was very very sicked. So i went to visit him after reaching JB. He was so skinny and his leg was wrapped by a thick layer of bandage. I dont know how to describe his leg. You could see all dead cells had turned white in colour. Just like cooked meat. My heart was so painful to see that.

10.2.09 He's dead after chap ngo meh (The last day of CNY). I went back with my cousin. I saw him lying in the coffin. Just couldn't stop my tears. I lost him forever and i got no chance to call him again.

On the other hand, i am glad that i am getting closer and closer to my cousins, my uncles and my aunts. Never thought that we can chat for so long. They're quite nice actually and they're good to me, too.

Cherish your family and be good to them. Once they're gone, it's useless to do anything. No matter how loud you cry , they will never come back to you again.

I am proud to be a little part of Lim family.





Thursday, January 29, 2009

I have recovered!

非常的开心!过了几天用嘴巴呼吸的日子,今天鼻子终于恢复运作了!
过年竟然生病,真是伤心得不知道该怎么说。
那么多诱人的食物,却食不知味!
好久都没病得那么严重了,发冷,喉咙发炎,严重伤风。。。
不过没关系, 还好小妹我够强壮, 已经康复了! 不要担心哦!

放了一个星期的假,回到这个可爱又可恶的地方
可爱,因为这里有我亲爱的朋友。。
可恶,因为每天7。30 就得起床上课。。
不过没关系,撑多10个月,就要结束这里的生活了。。

Gonna sit for AS exam at the end of March..
So nervous and worry that i cant get good results..
Cant see my future... Should i take pharmacy?
Actually i am a bit interested in doing business..
I don't know, i need some advices..

Dear Yvonne, it's you, GORGEOUS! i know you cant read Chinese,
sorry that my English is very poor,
dare not to express my feelings using english in my blog..
so I'll try to campur my language,
so that you have some idea what i am writing about..

Next monday is holiday..
I wanna go back, but my dear mum doesn't allow..
What a sad thing...
Mum, i just homesick lah...
Let me go....

Monday, January 26, 2009

我什么什么都不要

“阿公,你要吃什么东西吗?”,我说
“我什么什么都不要。。”阿公说
我的阿公身体不好了,脚的血管阻塞,脚踝的部分都溃烂了
痛得需要打吗啡

今天是农历初一,可我的心情却不怎么兴奋
因为,医生说阿公可能过不到元宵节了
但是,有些人竟然还能够视若无睹,问候都没一声
不敢说自己很孝顺,但就是尽量做我能做的
好过人走了,才来猫哭耗子假慈悲,

我好心疼他,93岁了,还要忍受那么大的痛苦
而我,也不能为他做什么来减轻它的痛
只能拍拍他的背,喂他喝点水
我的潮洲话不流利,也和他聊不了多少
就静静的看着他,睡着,又醒

他没胃口,什么东西都吃不下
好不容易,他说要喝咖啡
小婶泡了半杯咖啡加两片苏打饼
我喂着他,心里好高兴,即便他只吃了那么一点点
但血糖始终太低,没办法只好打点滴
看着护士把针扎在他那瘦弱的手上
心里酸了一下, 偷偷别过头去把眼泪擦干

希望上帝让他好好的走。。
阿公,晚安